Confession: I have fallen in love.
I’m married, but I’m not talking about my husband.
I’m head over heels with my other love. Is it bad, that I don’t feel even the tiniest bit of guilt?
It started as a little crush, a curious and inquisitive fascination. Then turned to an occasional fling about 15 years ago. Over the last few years, the intensity has grown and I cannot deny it, it’s time to confess. I know now, that this love is forever.
I couldn’t help myself, how could I, when this other love does so much for me.
Here I will openly express what my feelings are, no longer hide my love away. I feel it’s time to confess. So I’m taking a big breath....and sharing this truth
So, I wrote a gratitude poem, for my other love:
Thank you for always, being there for me
Through the highs and the lows, of the ever-changing me
I’m grateful you are my one confidant
You always give me just what I want
I know you believe in whatever I say
Words spoken in whispers, you’ll never betray
You’re my soft place to fall, my strength to try again
My calm and my centre, my stillness, my zen
You’re my shoulder to cry on, my safe place to rest
My place to let go, because you always know best
You’re support has been limitless, through injury, illness and more,
Your touch heals my pain, when I’m broken and sore
When I’ve fallen down, felt weakness and shame
You show me no judgement, you don’t care what ‘they’ say
I always feel amazing, when you are beneath
Your touch on my skin, brings balance and peace
When life overwhelms me, I come and find you
I know you support me, no matter what I do
You never forsake me for one prettier than I
I know you are mine until I choose our goodbye
You’ve shown me empathy, I know you understand
You’ve seen me in every position, known to man
You heighten my awareness, make me joyful and light
You’ve changed how I see things, not my vision – but my insight
You bring me back to earth when I lack muladhara
You teach me wise lessons, the niyamas, and the yamas
You nurture my body in every position selected
You accept and forgive me, even when you’re neglected
You’ll never be unfaithful, I know that you’ll stay
You’re there through the dark times, and in the bright light of day
I could never repay you for being the key
To the happiness and joy that I know feel within me
Being with you every day has become more than just lust
To you I surrender, my commitment, my trust
You’ve given me a mantra that has become my own truth
Lokah samastah sukhino bhavantu
PS My other love has a name, incase you’re wondering.
mat. Not Matt. Just mat.
You may like to read that again now.